Huffing and Puffing

Here goes week 10 and on to the 5:5. Five minute run, five minute walk. I liked the 3:2, the 5:5 is killing me! My coach is trying to be encouraging, "it will come to you" she says, "some people don't get into the groove until later in training, in fact some don't get into to the groove until their NEXT marathon." Did she really just say that out loud?! Has she lost her *%$! mind?!!! (Wow, I didn't know I was such a cusser - my sister, Michelle, says, I'm not even into the "bite me" miles and I'm already cussing.) But does my coach really think I would be doing this again? I am all for supporting Lew and yes, I believe we can make a difference but I was thinking next time I would host a wine and cheese party and call it good.

Methotrexate - Round 2

Aaaggghhhhh! Of course it didn't work! I am one of the lucky few who gets to have a second dose of methotrexate! Ouch! Two more sore hips and an HCG that is still almost 400! Will this ever end?! I am incredibly discouraged by this ongoing miscarriage that will not end. This makes me scream and cry all at the same time! I also realize I don't get to have a pity party - the man shoes and I must be one! OK, one good cry and a sore *%% later I am heading to the treadmill. I wish I could say it was that simple and although I didn't have a full blown eat the house, lay down on the couch with fuzzy slippers party, you could have found your way to my treadmill by following the Twinkie crumbs! Ugg.

I'm still here!

I'm still here and still training, I've just hit a bloggers block! I'll be back very soon with some new pic's. Until then:
Quote of the week: "Victory is for those who want it the most!"

The marathon scan

Have you ever noticed the look? You know, when you wear something too tight or too trendy or just plain ugly, you get the body scan. Well, the same is true when you are the shape of a potato and then tell someone you are going to run a marathon. It's called the marathon scan. You get the scan followed by a subtle gasp. If the person is really good they can quickly go right into an ohhhhhh and then act like something got in their eye so they can look away. The good news is I got my very cute plus size running capri's so the scan will only be for the marathon and not for ugly running clothes! By the way, I think my cute running capri's make me run faster!

A million thank yous!

Thank yous all around! Where do I even begin to say thank you to the incredible people in my life?!
To the world's greatest husband who encourages me and tells me I am doing the right thing when training takes away from family time every Saturday morning. And who taught our sweet little 2 year old to say "Go Team"! (although I think he secretly also taught him to say, "Mommy, your short! - not funny).
To Tanya who can whip a bible verse out of her pocket at a moment's notice to cheer me on and give words of encouragement: Proverbs 17:17, John 3:18 and John 15:13 although yikes on this one, does Tanya really think I am going to drop dead attempting to run a marathon?.
Thank you to Sandy for her loads of encouragement through emails, phone calls and blog responses. And for sending me the web address to plus size running clothes and fund raising ideas.
Thank you to Jan Pilcher for my Casting Crowns CD that inspired me on my last long run and to Meesa Taylor for working for me on Saturdays so I can train.
Thank you to coach Jessica who ALWAYS has a smile on her face (she doesn't even breath hard when going up hills), ALWAYS has words of encouragement and who can make even a double amputee believe they can run a marathon!
And thank you to EVERYONE at my Airlift going away party who said, "You can do it!" and acted interested as I talked on and on about running. Even thank you to Craig who almost fell over dead when I told him I was running and who told me I should have started training 6 months ago - I can still see the look on Sandy's face that still makes me laugh out loud! It's the Craig's of the world who work on the other side of my brain to keep me going out of pure defiance! I love ya Craig!

3:2

No, this is not a scripture verse although my good friend Tanya has been supplying with all kinds of scripture to keep me going cause that's what its going to take to get me through this! Rather this is what I have been running for two weeks now - 3 minute run 2 minute walk. Doesn't sound like much? Well it has been! I still have not embraced running - does this ever happen?! Do people really grow to love this torture? I wonder who the first person was who said, "I think I want to go out and run for FUN?! I am telling you if you want to find crackpots you don't have to look much farther than the running arena! They are everywhere!

The Running Fairy!

Tonight I met the running fairy! After our team practice I went to Road Runner Sports to get some new inserts for my shoes, it was either that or rip off a piece of my tempur-pedic mattress and stick it in my shoes. I was sitting there waiting my turn wearing my Team in Training shirt and this fairy comes out of nowhere and instantly changes out my shoe inserts and starts telling me what a great thing Team in Training is and how magical running is and telling me how I shouldn't worry because before long I will feel it in my soul. It gave me goosebumps to hear him talk about the last 200 yards! He told me not to worry about "coming from the couch" he too started out unhealthy 10 years ago and has run 22 marathons since then. Wow! I doubt that will ever be my story but nonetheless I felt like he had sprinkled fairy dust all over me! He asked if I had caught the bug yet and when I said no he gave me an extra 10% off my purchase because, "if you are not loving it you ought to get at least something out of running!" I just love the running fairy!